Well, I have failed at the goal I set for myself when i created this blog, which was to document my life as best as i could and as often! It is clear that this did not happen, seeing as i only have 3 posts, and the last one was on new years! BUT, this is my new start! I will now attempt to achieve the goal i set forth to accomplish, and it only seemed right that i should start on this day: 2 years since my life completely changed! :)
Two years ago, on this day, i went to Warped Tour for the first time, and if ever there was an experience that was eye-opening/life-changing, it was this. Since that day, so many things about my person, life, even future, have changed. The person who was 2 years is almost all gone, making way for the one i'm becoming...and i am perfectly ok with that! since that day, i've come to find a piece of me i didn't existed. i found that part of me i was meant to be....i found the one thing i couldn't live without, and along with it, found a refeshed love in God. If i hadn't attended Warped Tour that summer, i really don't know what person i would be right now...but i honestly believe i wouldn't be as happy as i mine with who i am now! Being there that day, surrounded by music and nothing more, filled my heart in a way i'd rarely ever felt. In an enviroment so chaotic, loud, and pretty much insane, i felt only comfort. As the day ended, i knew i wanted nothing more than this...this world of music and joy! Since then, i have dreamed only of making it so the music world! I've got a long way to go, and a lot of things to learn and do, but it's something no one, but God, can stop me from reaching!
However, as great as my Warped experience was with all it's great outcome, there definitely has been some downfalls along the way. Along with discovering the person i am and want to be, came the disapproving eye of others. In such a smal town, where even the smallest things can stand out, it's difficult to be unique. Along with this, came the build up and downfall of relationships and friendships, the struggle of trying to be myself when so many things tried to push me down, and the experience of love and loss. Within the last 2 years, i lived the darkest moment of my life, which was just this last winter. It was a long, painful few months, which even now, I am still trying to recover from. But, 2 days ago i went to my 3rd warped tour, and once again i felt a hint of the feeling i had my first time....a hope that maybe now things would get better. And so this is the reason i resume my attempt at this blog. I have lived through the best and worst moments of my life so far[which blogs to come will explain], i am months from becoming 18, and a year from leaving this damned town. So so me, this is the best time to document my life thus far, and all that is to come as i prepare myself to finally reach true freedom! :)
So this is a new beginning, and i hope things will only get better from here!
"So here's to starting over...The future's mine to claim!"
